like water on rock

as the boat sails towards the wreckless waves and slams hard against the water. be grace my god. stand firm with me "The Captain". before these skys have a time to thunder upon me. before every one i know is watching me. screaming at me. stomping on top of me. i feel that i am in a war with the earth itself. a personal war sent from hell. trampling on top of me, i lose air to my lungs. with their words crawling into my ears "lose your faith now." is all i hear. but no i will not give up this ship, walk the waves with me O, Graceful One. calm the earth put your hands on this wreckless hate of this world, make ease, set the hate away have it crawl back below the surfaces of this earth. send your angels on us, and send them high and fast. i feel them as they fly over me and as they put their hands on me whispering in my ear "be grace O, Loving One, be grace, be calm, be ease". please help me understand that i am not alone, when your words whisper into my ear i dance high above the trees floating, to the music and the sound waves carry me further towards you and i drip in a loving matter.

and when i land my boat to these docks. i went through hell to be here. i am shivering, and i am hurt and i am bleeding, but i see clearer now. i am surrounded by enemies, but i dont move an inch, i show no fear, i am not afraid of anything, because i have nothing to be afraid of. send your grace again god. these people just dont understand. i love my enemies i swear. i love my enemies. i love my enemies. i love my enemies. i love my enemies. i love my enemies...

the best part about being alive. is knowing that you could be alone for the rest of your life in the deepest part of your mind.

label it "the unforgettable disaster" of not being there when you should have. now this house is rotting with all of us in it and our footprints are leaving marks in the floor boards. she stood there in black and white staring at me. i ran towards her to hug her, to touch her. i ran towards her. she shattered before i got there, she shattered. she watched my eyes as she did it too, she watched every single one of my eyes. "there was nothing that i could do". i keep telling myself that to soften the blow. but in my [eye] i still know the truth. all that i ever do is lie to myself.

there are captains in the sky directing traffic waiting for us

burn it. i sleep in a den of lions, their hearts keep me warm. for all things shiny in this world, its all a lie, its all fake. every reflection from the broken glass, reflects something harder. a more rough deffinition of a shadow creeping in the corner. what else is there to tell you? the dream you've been living doesnt mean anything anyway. tell me. do any flowers grow in your dream? any roses? guns and gunpowder grow in mine. they bloom from the ground in a stem sticking out of the ground. pointed right at the sun. which army should i build today? theres a war that must be won. and you can sleep flawless in your bed with your eyes closed, dreaming of stars and all things shiny tonight. our forrest will grow on bigger and further. i refuse to have anyone get near it long enough to burn it. and if the truth shows, i refuse to see it. i have the heart of the lion in me and i will stand on my own two feet. in strength and harmony. in love and anger. with the violence from all sides. attacking us, pinning us down. and once i am dead and put in this earth, i will be a seed for the earth to see. and i will bloom out of this ground. blossoming towards the sky. and i will point to the sun and ill say: "sun! souls arent born over night!" and ill walk with you Teacher in the kingdom of heaven and you will walk with me Teacher in the kingdom of heaven. but if there are blood in my vaines still, then there are mouths to feed.

Agateophobia

you are hunted with your haunted. bring me down and ill bring you up. lift you up as high as the mountains. we are at the point when everything doesn't go according to plan. and i have failed to issue this new defense. give us time and time again. we havn't lost our way we are just breaking down. give me strength and regain conscious. i have failed the many fathers in my time and the architects have build something stronger then me. if it wasn't for the fact that i had so much to lose. none of you would be here. and i mean this with everything i am. to the worlds that aren't round, and the people with no faces. where is your grace? don't struggle the inevitable. too many times have i seen the mountains crumble and the skys fall. the rivers run dry, and have it rain blood. too many times have i talked to ghosts, and hear the stories they've lost. the air that they breathe and the chiver they fight in the night. the sidewalks are their best friends. because where there are roads, then there are roads to walk. and they will walk for miles and miles. its everything they have planned, they told me themselves that they have a spot for me. i thought there was no end, and just time. but then i stumbled upon a place where there is no time. and i thought to myself for the last and final time... "oh what a sea to swim in."

the storms restless tides in shrine

the sky activates such a sad sound of a once unsatisfied animal. they were pulling on my legs instead. before i felt freedom i felt triumph. i saw their version of a heart and it was caught in the storm as it fell from the sky, it dripped down my face. it made me wonder why i even fought at all today. you seemed to have forgotten how many stars i stole for you. i wished for the universe for you. we went on dancing on the moons and left our markings everytime we fell to make love. they said to me "what kind of war are you fighting now?" i wish i could have said that it was all the same but then id be lying to myself. like wine flowing from the river it washed our sins away. like children like your eyes they sparkle a wonderful shine from the sun till the end of time. as you held my hand, you held theres as well. we all followed you into the abyss. you said to me it will be ok, you even promised it as well. you said you were sent from Freedom to be Liberty. but you lied to me. you lied to all of us! how many diamonds must you own to show your true colors reflecting back on yourself! i think in time we will afford a good piece of iron. i think in time the roses will taste like metal, and it takes blood to water these roots back to life now. this is what you've become of us. i blame no one but myself.

too many boat like jets

im not driving this back any other way. this time we'll start over. even if this must be set on fire. ill keep this tied. from the morning breath till the last night. ill make alright. between the heart of an ox and a muscle cycle of flesh. lies you, a sliver of whats to come of the residue in the hell bound of the fat. you will be washed away. forgotten. as if you have never existed. ill bury you six feet under hell. ill even give you time to pray. where did your sun go? you seemed to have lost tension. this has just ended. in love and faith.

the big fish eats the little fish to survive

to the scarlett hand of redemption thank you so much for letting me down. if it wasnt for the fact that i was suffering for so long. i dont think you would have seen me get so mad. to the exploding planes in the sky. i thank you for crash landing in my heart. we'll gather bones tonight. for the morning will burn so bright. and the sun will harvest on our souls. give birth to our hearts, and water them back to life with blood sweat and tears. we will bloom out of this battle ground with daggers in our hands. we'll march on like a plague, tracing our steps in chalk outlines from our bodies. i promise you we aren't afraid of death, we haven't lost in 2009 years. i refuse to lose now. these planes will fly high like birds, their wingspan will cover the entire earth, and shed its grace, oh they will fly high with love. its like an army didnt kill for once.